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The Path © 1998 by: Cirse Windom
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Revelation ~ source |
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seeker went on until a time of seeming isolation.
and in his seeming solitude, there came a revelation.
for this revelation.... seeker stood tall and prayed in deepest gratitude.
turning his hands from upon his heart in an outward, skyward sweep, he gave of his self ~ all that was within....
gathering the presence of all from beyond, seeker drew all ~ within.... laying his hands once again upon his heart.
and he gave of his self ~ stronger, wiser, wholler, from all that he had been given ~ to all that was beyond him, again turning his hands outward. understanding, at last, the significance of friend’s words from what seemed to seeker like a long long time ago.
in his peace and happiness, seeker sighed, for he had finally found the whole of his truth.... seeker wept, relieved that he had finally found the source of his faith.... laughed and danced, joyous that he had finally found the source of his self.
for all his searching, his seeking and wondering, seeker realized suddenly that ~ as with the nature of faith its self, as with the nature of the path ~ the whole of his truth had been within him all along.
it is what is, what isn’t, and what could be. art, dreams, pondering.... existence its self.
it is leaves in the trees ~ gone today.... green tomorrow.... brown.... then gone again....
it is.... forever.
and it stunned seeker in its simplicity. awed seeker in its efficiency. struck seeker in its beauty.
for ~ seeker recognized instinct, and intuition as its source.
intuition born of every experience visited to any entity throughout all of time ~ a culmination of wisdom ~ a sense of greater knowing.
intuition necessarily built by instinct. instincts of insecurity and conservation.... which were the fear and laziness seeker had seen so often among so many. instincts, also, of propagation and preservation.
the four primary instincts seeker believed to be subtly, inherently present within every action and non-action, thought and non-thought from the very beginning.... and within all entities.
‘that which binds us together ~ and pulls us apart.’
‘among one another.... and within our selves.’
seeker was grateful that his dream of madness had shown him, finally, what he had been unable to consciously see.
‘insecurity,’ thought seeker, ‘is a fear of deprivation.’
‘it can manifest its self in relation to all manner of living: deprivation of food, deprivation of love, deprivation of shelter, of health, of longevity, of safety. the elements which we fear to be with, or without, are innumerable.’
‘insecurity is an all encompassing instinct in its many means of constant influence and reinforcement. an instinct necessary and necessarily omnipotent to insure our very survival. an instinct which very often results in greed, as a means of warding off potential deprivation. for ~ without such a fear, we would be unable to think ahead, and be in constant danger of even fatal deprivation.’
‘conservation, then, which can manifest its self in laziness, is an instinct inherent in the event we must endure deprivation. it can cause us to avoid seemingly immediate and unnecessary measures or actions ~ which we believe may help us avoid current expenditure and thus future deprivation.’
‘we conserve our energy, our efforts, our affection, our every wealth, for fear of suspected or anticipated deprivation.’
‘preservation, then, gives us a sense that we must survive ~ and provides us with the means of avoiding deprivation.’
‘preservation can paradoxically help us to transcend the basis of our conservation instinct, and employ conservation for our perceived greater and future benefit. a sense of preservation can encourage patience or impatience ~ which is why we sometimes engage in non-immediate action or thought in order to provide a means of avoiding deprivation later. preservation causes us to plan and prepare, and provides us with a sense of well being, and contentedness.’
‘preservation can drive us, so diligently, toward what we or our cultures might consider a ‘good’ quality of life ~ as to make us blind to our destruction. so driven in avoiding oppression that we, ironically, oppress our selves.’
‘propagation, then, drives us toward procreation, reproduction, duplication ~ but can be greatly and ultimately influenced by any of the other three instincts.’
‘for ~ if there is great fear of deprivation, many entities may not desire competition for sustenance, even with offspring. the conservation instinct can keep us from providing the necessary means by which to sustain another being. can dictate abstinence from birth, in the event that we see it as futile or dangerous for an offspring to come into being.’
‘and yet, paradoxically, our insecurity can bring about procreation because of a need ~ a need to be loved, a need to discover purpose ~ a sense of hope.... any multitude of needs and reasons.’
‘our conservation instinct can encourage us to bring forth another being so the new being can care for and provide for us when we are no longer able.’
‘our preservation instinct can drive us toward propagation when we feel an abundance and want to share, or when our cultural codes of acceptance dictate that it is a symbol of worth, and thus ~ a measure of wealth.’
‘in keeping with the nature of the sphere, all instincts must be equally influenceable by the others; and, all can be employed for either construction or destruction ~ both of which may eventually be perceived as the other.’
seeker saw that the only difference between human and non-human entities in the existence of these instincts, was that non-human entities embraced their instincts, accepted them and functioned in accordance with them.
humans, on the other hand ~ driven by their instincts to such an equal degree ~ employed their instincts to deny the very presence of their instincts.
seeker thought this intriguing ~ because he saw that as valiantly as humans tried to elevate them selves above the influence of instincts and nature....
they depended upon their very instincts to do so.
seeker saw humans as separate from their non-human counterparts not by faith.... but in their systems of belief ~ by their need and ability to justify, rationalize and explain. in effect.... separated by their desire to dominate and to separate them selves ~ entirely.
‘ironically, all this in an effort to gain a sense of belonging.’
seeker pondered: ‘these four main instincts, then, must be essential to facilitate the transfer and distribution of energies.... to facilitate the perpetual nature of the sphere.’
‘and all entities.... all energies must possess them ~ for, this is crucial. no entity could be without; for, such would create a weak point within the sphere ~ a weak point which would generate great imbalance.... an imbalance so tremendous as to effect the stability of every direct and indirectly related entity. which would seem counter to the nature of the sphere. the sphere must be self sustaining.... perpetual....’
seeker believed that a danger of human rationalization was the human ability to justify the need to dominate through belief, and manifest inflated self favoritism through custom.... which could lead to greater imbalance.
‘and, if imbalance cannot perpetually be.... then, although it may be for a while, culminating in greater and greater destruction.... the balance will eventually shift, resulting in renewed construction ~ possibly eliminating the previous source of weakness completely.’
‘humans are not necessarily altogether counter to the nature of the sphere, many of us are simply intensely inclined toward non-integration ~ which will eventually result in an intense period of regaining the balance we sought so strongly and for so long to upset....’
‘and, as such, humans are laying the foundation of an early extinction.... not only for them selves, but all others.’
‘and this.... seems counter to the needs of perpetuation unless one strives to consciously block that intuitive sense from one’s conscious awareness, and consciously strives to repress such a sense within every sense of one’s being.... allowing insecurity to reign supreme, which in another sense is essential to the foundation of faith, and which is what we humans seem to do so well.’
‘why,’ seeker wondered, ‘are so many of us so unwilling to face our selves, and yet, are so content to accept total destruction of our selves, our species, our entire environment?’
‘what must we see in our selves that seems worse than total destruction?’
‘what kind of ‘horrible beast’ can compare with mass devastation? in not facing inwardly, we project outwardly the being so often shown to others.... the ‘horrible beast’ within.’
‘the ‘horrible beast’ that will usher our own and many others’ destruction.’
‘we are not necessarily counter, but are acting as catalysts, applying pressure upon the need to integrate.’
‘and should we not do so voluntarily.... in every sense of our selves ~ we will facilitate an ever rapidly increasing integration, in spite of and because of our efforts at avoidance.’
seeker thought for a moment. ‘we possess such a limited view of eternity.’
‘such a limited perception of existence ~ often limited to our own existence.... and even then it isn’t wholly perceived.’
‘nature depends upon our instincts to facilitate perpetuation; but, humans possess such a powerful sense of denial and drive toward domination, as well as the ability to manifest what they falsely perceive to be domination....’
‘....that ironically, through our creation ~ our need to rearrange and control, we destroy.’
‘we create conveniences farther removed from the realm of interdependency in order to gain more perceived control for our selves.’
‘create systems which, paradoxically, strengthen our insecurities.’
‘increasingly, seemingly pushing our selves farther outside of our interdependent natures. farther still, beyond our intuitive knowledge of the sphere.’
‘we tend to either take without returning, or take and return in toxic quantities ~ steadily excluding our selves.... denying our belonging.’
‘and, in doing so are dragging others with us.’
‘as long as we continue to deny our instincts we are interfering with our own potential balance, as well as the balance of others. creating greater imbalance within and around us.’
‘becoming an illness unto our selves and our environment.’
‘i used to wonder of the difference between the ways in which a boulder and seed struggle for domination and the ways in which righteous individuals or bands struggle.’
‘each grappling for their place in existence.’
‘the tree and boulder are limited to a degree, as are we, to their external abilities of transcendence.’
‘therefore, they must acknowledge and rely upon their instincts ~ for they seem, at least from a near perspective, far less able than humans, to externally manifest perceived equalizing devices.’
‘humans, however, are far more able to immediately do so. and, do so with seemingly great efficiency.’
‘humans rely less upon the acknowledgment of instinct, and depend ever greater on technology or the physical ability to manipulate in order to gain what they perceive to be control.’
‘and yet, it is instinct which drives this. human instinct may simply not seem as immediately and directly relied upon ~ and so seems within individuals, more unknown.’
‘further, our instincts remind us of our equal place among other entities.... which many often choose to deny.’
‘so many humans are concertedly acting to destroy, that other entities of the path cannot develop the evolutionary and interdependent mechanisms necessary to facilitate such a tremendous transfer and shift in balance.’
‘their only available means is to shift utterly and as quickly.... in order to oppose.’
‘meanwhile, we occupy our selves with driving our selves and opposing energies toward rapid and mass collision.’
‘fortunately, this human tendency is avoidable,’ thought seeker, ‘with simple self recognition and acceptance.’
‘for, only then can we recognize our instincts as the triggers of action that they are.... transcend our destructive abilities.... and employ our instincts for the stability and betterment of all beings and thusly human beings.’
‘we all are ruled by instincts ~ for they are necessary. but, we must recognize, accept, respect and understand them in order to keep them from destroying us and others.’
seeker realized, however, that many humans were far from such a realization ~ and only one with mass destructive abilities could easily destroy all else.
in fact, seeker saw such non-awareness evident in his own time upon the path.
and saw that the potential for it only increased.
‘our insecurity and denial of instinct, because of instinct,’ thought seeker, ‘can cause us to exploit our conservation instinct, abuse our preservation instinct, and neglect our finest sense of procreation. it can cause us to oppress others, leading us toward destruction from what amounts to a short sighted and greedy preoccupation rooted in fear and denial of the wholistic needs of the self.’
‘if not for the benefit and wholistic wealth of even our children and their children.... then, perhaps if people would only realize that we will return. we will circle ‘round. we will turn and we will spread. we will integrate, gather, wither, rise and turn again and again and again.... revisiting.... becoming.... all that we belove.... all that we forsake.’
‘perhaps then, they would be more selfishly concerned for the place to which they will return.’
‘more concerned for the warm or frigid breath which will blow upon them. the soft green or tangled grey arms which will embrace them. the full or empty breast which will nurse them and turn them round.’
‘indigenous people seem to carry with them a knowledge of such things in their near memories.’
‘to rely upon technology to prove and then manipulate this rhythm of life, is to turn our intuitive senses to a pleading cause. our own cause. the cause of survival.’
‘if we only become aware of the total and all-influencing power of fear ~ we can recognize our reaction to it. so that our insecurity can make us more aware of our instincts to conserve, preserve and propagate, thus sparking our recognition of interrelatedness, interdependency ~ which will bring us to see a need to conserve all.’
‘and, in that, we will be perpetuating.’
‘we will be perpetuating the will of perpetuation! the faith of purpose!’
‘all.... for the slow, steady, adaptable, and certain necessity of perpetuation.’
‘this is why we’ve children and hope and love and peace!’
‘only until we recognize and accept fear in our selves can we consider others and our true dependency upon them ~ and they upon us. this will facilitate wholistic thinking and nurture wisdom. help us to see now and forever.’
‘only by maintaining a foundation of faith can one face the unknown ~ examine perspectives and determine self truths, which then facilitate the gaining of wisdom and thus a sense of inner peace.’
seeker thought of all entities, perceptively large and small, perceptively near and far ~ and he considered their broad relationship. ‘perhaps all systems of energy are representative of all others.... on varying scales.... relative only to one another.... relative only to one’s perspective. all functioning similarly ~ based upon the same principal of magnetism.... the same, singular universal principal of attraction and repulsion.’
‘each as a whole.... as the sum of its parts ~ and equally ~ a part.... integral to the sum of another whole. interrelated.... interdependent.’
‘our instincts help us to perpetuate the perpetual nature of that principal.’
‘faith is of instinct and intuition.’ ‘and these are of will.’ ‘the will necessary to perpetuate interdependency.’
ironically, many humans, in the saddest sense and by the most non-aware means, are simply expediting the process of eventual integration.’
‘and as such, much of their sense of true happiness, fulfillment and contentment are lost.’
‘which, then.... ‘leaping eternally into the abyss of awareness....’ ‘or....’ ‘dancing but briefly in the fire of denial....’
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